It is in the stopping and starting and stopping and starting. A “No” throws my whole being off kilter and it sometimes takes me days or weeks to gather myself together again. I have been in this pattern for 30 years. Wow. Someone left a comment saying that my transparency has inspired them. I am happy to hear that because it is really scary to be transparent but I am going to continue.
Yesterday, I went down into a dark hole of wondering will I have ever be/have what I desire. Then I watched the OWN Network and Oprah had Joel Osteen on. The theme of the show was I AM. Whenever you say I AM whatever…….that whatever starts seeking you and chases after you…. I AM FAT…… I AM BROKE……I AM SUCCESSFUL….I AM BEAUTIFUL…. You get it, it chases you.
So of course I became reingnited (is that a word?) I am compelled to continue on/.
I AM A FULL-TIME ABUNDANTLY COMPENSATED SINGER/SONGWRITER AND CREATIVE BEING.
I AM ABUNDANTLY COMPENSATED FOR ALL I DO… YES…